A Moment for Clarity from the Universe

Yesterday was important for clarity. Sometimes we have to truly be careful what we ask of the universe, as it tends to always deliver... and not in the ways we want. I asked for clarity... on this situation and I received it. Unfortunately, it was not the answer I wanted, and the universe has allowed me to make decisions in my personal life that have affected my overall life over the last 10 years.

It didn't come in the form I wanted. I thought it had to do with work. I thought it was about a job offer or something coming my way after I completed this reading. I was sure that my situation was regarding finances. But it was regarding my relationship and my self-worth.

See, I planned this special adventure for my partner and me, even though I have felt neglected in this relationship and was just looking to fill a void of disappointment. I have learned not to expect much, unless I am catering to them, but I really was hoping for a good day. It started ok, forced happiness, and then I made the mistake of wanting to visit a flower market, and there was no parking. I honestly don't even remember the event. I only remember saying I no longer want to visit and pick my own fresh flowers. They got upset and I had a reaction to their negative attitude about something that made me happy and they ruined,

They parked the car, and then things got out of the civil mode and into drama mode. I will never understand why someone who is enjoying an activity planned by someone else to celebrate a special day would even consider saying anything to make that person upset, but that is what happened. It started with "I guess I should just say things and not hold them in". They proceeded to mention an incident that happened earlier (last week) after returning from the Caribbean vacation I planned to celebrate their birthday, but they held on to it with disdain. They remember me saying, "Hold this phone, and don't drop it" as if they were a child. They felt embarrassed and held on to that.

But, before they started with their story, I did cut them off at the beginning, mind you, we were still mid "adventure" and had a couple of more stops. When they started with the "When we went to return your phone... I didn't appreciate..." and I cut them off and said "Let me guess? I did something wrong... this is a story about something I did wrong, a story about how I messed up and how I did them wrong... not a story about something they did to me or something that shows gratitude. No, this was a story about another time I had offended them, yet again. How sad to not be wrong about what was coming. How sad to spend so much time, effort, and energy ensuring someone feels celebrated and loved, and at the first moment, they slap you with their reality... their inability ti actually love and appreciate you back.

They didn't need to continue the story; I knew my side. We walked into the store, and they were on their phone, ignoring me as usual. They walked nowhere near me, so they looked like a separate customer from me. I spoke, they ignored. I handed them my phone to hold so I could check on my new phone. I almost dropped it because I was sure they were listening and would reach out their hand, but I looked like a crazy fool handing a phone to a stranger. I was humiliated when I noticed the employees caught what I was doing, and I moved quickly to greet them and hand them my phone. Of course, I never pulled up the QR code and info, so I had to ask the person I was with to hold my phone, yeah, I was mad. I did say "Try not to drop it". I know they felt embarrassed. I didn't care. I was humiliated.

How can you be upset by someone's reaction to your disrespect and neglect? I was hoping to be wrong about what was coming in the conversation. Of course, I was the bad one. Of course, I was wrong.... not that they were wrong for ruining the moment, the activity, the connection I was trying to create. See, here is why this is worth mentioning today, even though this is the norm... something changed. I felt like a fool. The veil came off. I saw the manipulation, the lack of empathy, the lack of appreciation, and caring. I saw myself watering a dead plant and asking why it doesn't bloom. There is no going back from here. Once you see something, you cannot unsee it. Once the universe reveals a truth, you can't live as if it isn't part of you; you can't hide the scars, the burns, the knowledge that comes with truth.

Are they capable of change? I'm sure. I am just not sure if it will happen with me.

So, why is today special?

The silent period begins.

I am not sure if this is the end of the beginning of the next chapter, but I am sure I am not the same. Effort will be matched. Energy will be matched, and I will focus on me. I am working too hard on ensuring they are ok, and I have given up so much of my life during the last 10 years.

Are we better today than 10 years ago? Yes.

Does that mean we have to spend another 10 years like this? No. I definitely need to continue to improve and grow. I want someone by my side who can enhance my life and help me grow and achieve. I am definitely not making hasty decisions, but I do feel the peace of knowing I am in control of what comes next.

When someone shows you who they are, believe them... when the Universe speaks to you, listen.

I'm including the reading below. How wrong I was in what I thought yesterday. Today, much clearer. They just cant keep trying to smooth things over without actually fixing anything. (the apology tour came after this...)

Significator: Reversed VIII of Wands (Eight of Wands Reversed)Moon Phase: Waxing Crescent

Core reversed meanings:

• Delays, slowed progress

• Miscommunication or lack of response

• Feeling stuck despite wanting movement

• Frustration with things not happening as quickly as expected

• Energy scattered or blocked

Reversed energy details:

• Momentum is interrupted or inconsistent

• Messages may be delayed, ignored, or unclear

• Plans may stall or not move forward as intended

• Can also indicate internal restlessness—wanting change, but not seeing it externally

As a significator (you/your current state):

• You are in a space of wanting things to move, but they’re not

• Possible feeling of being in limbo or waiting on others

• Efforts may not yet be translating into visible results

• Energy may feel bottled up or misdirected

Waxing Crescent influence:

• Even with delays, this is still a building phase

• Energy is trying to grow, but hasn’t fully aligned yet

• Intentions are forming, but execution or response is lagging

Position 1 (Present Situation): Two of Swords Reversed • The Hermit Reversed • IV of Cups Reversed

Two of Swords Reversed:

• Indecision breaking, no longer able to avoid

• Truth surfacing, emotional or mental pressure building

• Forced to confront something previously ignored

The Hermit Reversed:

• Isolation becoming unhelpful or excessive

• Avoiding inner reflection or, opposite, coming out of withdrawal

• Disconnect from inner guidance or reluctance to seek wisdom

• Feeling lost without clear direction

IV of Cups Reversed:

• Renewed awareness, seeing opportunities again

• Shifting out of apathy, boredom, or emotional withdrawal

• Openness to what was previously overlooked

• Re-engaging with life or possibilities

Position 2 (Crossing/Challenge):

The Lovers • The High Priestess Reversed • X of Swords Reversed

The Lovers:

• Choices, alignment, relationships

• Values-based decisions

• Union or connection, but also the need to choose a path

• Being at a crossroads where heart and mind matter

The High Priestess Reversed:

• Ignoring intuition or inner voice

• Confusion, lack of clarity

• Hidden information not being accessed or understood

• Disconnect from inner knowing

X of Swords Reversed:

• Recovery after a painful ending

• Moving on, healing, rising after a low point

• Letting go of what has already ended

• Avoiding or delaying full closure (in some cases)

Position 3 (Foundation / Root Cause):

VI of Pentacles • II of Cups • Queen of Cups

VI of Pentacles:

• Giving and receiving, balance in support

• Generosity, help, or imbalance in who gives more

• Power dynamics in relationships (giver vs receiver)

• Assistance, resources, or fairness

II of Cups:

• Partnership, mutual connection

• Emotional bond, harmony between two people

• Attraction, alignment, shared feelings

• One-on-one relationship energy

Queen of Cups:

• Emotional depth, compassion, empathy

• Nurturing, intuitive, emotionally aware

• Sensitivity to others’ needs

• Strong emotional intelligence and care

Position 4 (Recent Past):

The Hanged Man Reversed • VI of Wands • Ace of Wands

The Hanged Man Reversed:

• Resistance to letting go or seeing things differently

• Feeling stuck but unwilling to surrender or shift perspective

• Delays caused by holding on or avoiding a necessary pause

• Breaking out of stagnation (in some contexts)

VI of Wands:

• Success, recognition, victory

• Public acknowledgment, validation from others

• Confidence, achievement after effort

• Being seen or celebrated

Ace of Wands:

• New beginnings, inspiration, spark

• Creative or passionate opportunity

• Initial burst of energy to start something new

• Motivation, excitement, potential

Position 5 (Conscious / Above):

Ace of Pentacles • Temperance • V of Wands

Ace of Pentacles:

• New opportunity in the material world (job, money, stability)

• Fresh start with tangible potential

• Seed of something that can grow into long-term security

• Practical beginnings, investment, foundation building

Temperance:

• Balance, patience, moderation

• Blending different elements successfully

• Healing, alignment, finding the middle ground

• Taking a measured, steady approach

V of Wands:

• Conflict, competition, differing opinions

• Struggle for position or recognition

• Tension, chaos, or lack of coordination

• Internal conflict or external rivalry

Position 6 (Near Future):

IX of Cups • III of Swords Reversed • Page of Swords

IX of Cups:

• Satisfaction, emotional fulfillment

• Wishes being granted, contentment

• Personal happiness, enjoyment of what’s been achieved

• A sense of “getting what you wanted”

III of Swords Reversed:

• Healing from heartbreak or disappointment

• Releasing pain, emotional recovery

• Forgiveness, moving forward

• Gradual mending rather than sudden resolution

Page of Swords:

• Curiosity, seeking information

• Communication, messages, observation

• Learning, asking questions, being mentally alert

• Sometimes watchfulness or keeping an eye on a situation

Position 7 (You / Your Energy):

Page of Cups • IV of Swords Reversed •

(Clarifiers that fell together) X of Cups • King of Wands • Ace of Swords Reversed

Page of Cups:

• Emotional openness, sensitivity

• Creativity, intuition, gentle approach

• New emotional beginnings or messages

• Being receptive, hopeful, or idealistic

IV of Swords Reversed:

• Restlessness, difficulty resting or recovering

• Coming out of a period of pause

• Mental exhaustion or burnout

• Urge to re-engage before fully recharged

X of Cups:

• Emotional fulfillment, family happiness

• Harmony, connection, joy in relationships

• Sense of “ideal” emotional outcome

• Deep satisfaction in personal life

King of Wands:

• Leadership, confidence, taking initiative

• Vision, boldness, strong presence

• Entrepreneurial or action-oriented energy

• Taking control and moving things forward

Ace of Swords Reversed:

• Lack of clarity, confusion

• Miscommunication or unclear truth

• Difficulty seeing something objectively

• Delayed insight or mental fog

Position 8 (Environment / External Influences):

VII of Cups • The Fool • The Emperor Reversed

VII of Cups:

• Many options, choices, possibilities

• Confusion, illusion, or unclear direction

• Overwhelm from too many paths

• Difficulty discerning what is real vs idealized

The Fool:

• New beginnings, taking a leap of faith

• Entering unknown territory

• Risk, spontaneity, openness to change

• Starting fresh without full certainty

The Emperor Reversed:

• Lack of structure, instability in authority

• Control issues (either too rigid or not enough leadership)

• Disorganization or absence of clear boundaries

• External figure who is unreliable, dominating, or ineffective

Position 9 (Hopes & Fears):

The Chariot • V of Cups Reversed • Wheel of Fortune

The Chariot:

• Drive, determination, willpower

• Desire for control, direction, and success

• Overcoming obstacles through focus

• Strong push toward victory or forward movement

V of Cups Reversed:

• Letting go of past disappointment

• Emotional recovery, acceptance

• Hope returning after loss

• Fear of repeating past regret (shadow aspect)

Wheel of Fortune:

• Change, cycles, turning points

• Fate, timing, things outside your control

• Ups and downs, unpredictability

• Opportunity for positive shift

Position 10 (Outcome): (Note had to force these out.. energy was blocked)

III of Cups • Page of Pentacles • Judgement Reversed

III of Cups:

• Celebration, connection, community

• Support from others, shared joy

• Social gatherings, positive group energy

• Friendship, collaboration

Page of Pentacles:

• New opportunity for learning or growth

• Beginning stages of something practical (job, study, project)

• Curiosity, willingness to build something steadily

• Grounded, realistic approach to progress

Judgement Reversed:

• Self-doubt, hesitation to make a final decision

• Delayed awakening or realization

• Avoiding a calling or not fully stepping into it yet

• Difficulty letting go of past judgments or fully moving forward

quick reset and then:

Clarifier for Position 10:

VI of Cups • The Tower • II of Wands Reversed

VI of Cups:

• Past connections, nostalgia

• Familiar people, memories, or emotional history

• Comfort in what is known

• Innocence, returning to something from before

The Tower:

• Sudden change, disruption

• Truth revealed, something breaking down

• Unexpected events that shift direction

• Collapse of what was unstable or no longer solid

II of Wands Reversed:

• Hesitation, lack of direction

• Fear of stepping into the unknown

• Delayed decisions or avoiding planning

• Feeling stuck between options

Putting it together:

Overall Energy (Significator): Reversed VIII of Wands + Waxing Crescent

This sets the tone:

• You’re in a phase of wanting movement, but experiencing delays or blocks

• Things are trying to build (waxing crescent), but not fully aligned yet

• There’s a sense of waiting, miscommunication, or stalled momentum

Core Situation (Positions 1 + 2)

Position 1 (Present):

• Reversed 2 of Swords

• Reversed Hermit

• Reversed IV of Cups

This shows:

• Avoidance is breaking down — you can’t ignore something anymore

• Coming out of withdrawal or isolation, even if it’s uncomfortable

• A shift from emotional disconnection → re-engagement and awareness

Position 2 (Challenge):

• Lovers

• Reversed High Priestess

• Reversed X of Swords

The challenge is:

• A decision or relationship dynamic that requires alignment

• Difficulty trusting your intuition or inner knowing

• You are in a healing phase, but clarity hasn’t fully landed yet

👉 Together:You’re being pushed to make a meaningful choice, but the challenge is confusion, mixed signals, and not fully trusting your instincts yet

Root + Past (Positions 3 + 4)

Position 3 (Root Cause):

• VI of Pentacles

• II of Cups

• Queen of Cups

This is deeply relational:

• A connection built on giving, emotional care, and partnership

• Strong empathy, nurturing, and emotional investment

• Could point to a dynamic where you gave a lot emotionally

Position 4 (Recent Past):

• Reversed Hanged Man

• VI of Wands

• Ace of Wands

This shows:

• A period of being stuck or resisting change, followed by

• A moment of success, recognition, or confidence, and

• A new beginning or spark of something exciting

👉 Together:You came from something emotionally meaningful, then had a shift into momentum and opportunity, but possibly without fully resolving the deeper emotional layer

Conscious Mind (Position 5)

• Ace of Pentacles

• Temperance

• V of Wands

You are thinking about:

• A new stable opportunity (money, job, foundation)

• Wanting balance and control

• While also feeling or anticipating conflict, competition, or struggle

👉 This is very grounded:You want something real and stable, but you’re aware it may come with challenges or competition

Near Future (Position 6)

• IX of Cups

• Reversed III of Swords

• Page of Swords

This suggests:

• Emotional satisfaction or a wish being fulfilled

• Continued healing from past hurt

• Incoming communication, information, or clarity

👉 Energy shifts toward:

• Feeling better emotionally

• Getting answers or messages

• Moving out of pain into understanding

You (Position 7)

• Page of Cups

• Reversed IV of Swords

• X of Cups, King of Wands, Reversed Ace of Swords

This is layered, but clear:

You are:

• Emotionally open, hopeful, sensitive (Page of Cups)

• Restless, tired, or mentally overwhelmed (IV of Swords reversed)

And within you:

• A desire for emotional fulfillment and family happiness (X of Cups)

• A strong drive to take control and lead (King of Wands)

• But also lack of clarity or confusion (Ace of Swords reversed)

👉 You’re holding:

• Heart (emotion)

• Drive (action)

• But missing clear direction or truth

Environment (Position 8)

• VII of Cups

• The Fool

• Reversed Emperor

Externally:

• Too many options, unclear paths

• Opportunities for new beginnings

• But lack of structure, leadership, or stability around you

👉 The environment is:

• Open but chaotic

• Full of possibility but not grounded or organized

Hopes & Fears (Position 9)

• The Chariot

• Reversed V of Cups

• Wheel of Fortune

You:

• Hope to move forward and succeed (Chariot)

• Want to leave disappointment behind

• But fear:

  • Things being out of your control

  • Cycles repeating

  • Outcomes depending on timing rather than effort

👉 This is:“I want control and success, but I don’t trust that things won’t shift again”

Outcome (Position 10 + Clarifier)

Main:

• III of Cups

• Page of Pentacles

• Reversed Judgement

Clarifier:

• VI of Cups

• The Tower

• Reversed II of Wands

Combined outcome energy:

• Connection, support, or community (III of Cups)

• A new grounded opportunity beginning (Page of Pentacles)

• But:

  • Hesitation to fully step into it (Judgement reversed)

With clarifiers adding:

• Something connected to the past or familiar (VI of Cups)

• A sudden shift or realization (Tower)

• Followed by uncertainty or hesitation about next steps (2 of Wands reversed)

Full Picture (Plain Truth Interpretation)

• You are in a blocked or delayed phase, but things are building underneath

• You are being pushed to face a decision you’ve been avoiding

• The situation is deeply tied to emotional connections, giving, and past dynamics

• You’ve recently had a spark of momentum or opportunity, but it didn’t fully resolve things

• Right now, you want stability and something real, even if it comes with challenges

• In the near future, there is emotional relief, communication, and some satisfaction

BUT:

• You are internally torn between emotion, action, and lack of clarity

• Your environment is unstable and full of mixed options without structure

• You want control, but fear unpredictability

Outcome energy:

• There is connection and a new opportunity forming

• But it comes with:

  • A sudden shift or wake-up moment

  • And hesitation to fully commit or move forward right away